Alright
Sweet
huh
woah
Woah
ahh*cough*hhhaha
Huh
Ok
Passionate Glare
yes
Yes
Damn
Wait what
Hmm
Okay
Sweeet
haha
wow
uh huh
Hahaha
War
HAHAHA
hmmm
Yup
Ehh
Aye
Haha
ahhhh
*cough*
hahahahaha
AYEEE
Mhhhmm
Oh Yea
alright
mmmmm
uhh
ughhhhh
Of corse
ehh
ughh
ah
ok
Ok
ok
finally
uh oh
why
wait
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
HOLY SHIT...
am I, should I be, can I be, am I really gonna be.
"Times they are a changin"
and thats the constant truth
Today was one i may always remember. The idea of moving to Florida, not just one of those things you say with your friends when its shitty out but when you sit down make a budget think ahead and really think hard about the possibility, the the first step in the next chapter of my life as cleche as that may be. The triumphs, the hardships, the first times along with the first mistakes no matter the experience i'll have to embrace and learn. Taking my life 18 1/2 hours away from everything Ive come to love and know the past 18 years is going to be no easy task both physically and mentally. the drive down alone is going to be tough but then after getting settled in the reality hitting my brain that it's just Sean, Justin and Me in this new city with no one else we know. i'm excited beyond all belief but scared shit less as well. me not getting accepted into Oswego and then this opportunity presenting itself seems almost too perfect. I always say everything will work itself out in the end and i think thats why i didn't get accepted, in order to take this hand that fate/karma/destiny/life whatever you'd like to call it has given me and show my full house, I'll have the three aces and a couple of queens.
i still have much research, planning and collaborating to do
My goal by the time i leave is to have an extensive 6 month plan that way we can stay on top of our priority's without having to worry about being short or in debt and still enjoying the new journey were about to embark on and in 6 months we'll have a little better understanding of what to do and by the end of a year return to college and continue earning a degree
if this actually happens, the first thing i get with some extra money is my tattoo
optimus parentibus- so they know they did a good job raising me
everything changes, nothing perishes- no matter where life takes you, the lessons/friends/memories of those who truly matter will never be lost or forgotten
between starting college, balancing that and work, not to mention homework, and having a little time with friends, and of course having family time
theres a neglect to any time set aside for me to just have some alone time and it's really starting to get to me
and as i said last time my self diagnosed depression seems to be getting worse
i really need a girl in my life, someone i can talk to when im having a rough day, someone to talk with till all hours of the night, i really miss having a deep connection like that
i dont know what exactly but i know some things in my life need to change
and i hope it happens soon
about things looking up...
nevermind
i havent even talked to her in like 2 weeks
and it sucks, i really thought we had something
but i guess life will go on
and unfortunatly my feeling of constant depression is back, just to top it off
i cant wait to see how next month will treat me